uh oh, uh oh.

I'm so fanatic sey about this brand. Previously was BeautiControl, which my mom uses from the parent brand Tupperware.(its in the catalogue if you dont believe me. Heh!)

I was kinda crazy about that brand and i simply.. lost faith after like 3 months into it. and it is kinda expensive than Clinique in a way.(because Clinique can last for quite a while although expensive.)

now i'm just fanatic because it really delivers.
I just bought :-

1) Superfit Makeup - previously used ZA tinted moisturizer, which was too tanned for my skin.
2) Curling Lash Power - wanted to get Lash Power because it makes me look macam i got eyelash extensions. hurhur. (yeap, still cant put on that fake lashies for shit)
3) Pore Minimizer - Due to my enlarged pores and my oily T-zone. (the reason why my glasses keep slipping off my nose,no really.)
4) Turnaround skin concentrate - Bloodddyy awesome lah this one. because it just instantly make you more radiant in like 2 minutes. (after it has absorbed. but its like 90 bucks for a bottle. So i bought the sample size instead which I can afford.)
5) Clarifying Lotion 2 - A slight mistake because its for dry combi skin, and mine is oily combi. But because i didnt wanna waste another $35 on toner, i bought traveller's size instead. heh.

What I've been using :
6) All about eyes - Ini pon awesome product, makes my eyes brighter and my dark rings less obvious. (i dont know for those with serious dark circles. Try at your own risk.)
7) Liquid Facial Mild Soap for Oily skin - this is also another heaven-sent. Absolute love!
8) Dramatically Different Moisturizing Gel - Sorry babes, but because I'm a realist. This just doesnt work as good as i expected. Made my face still oily,even Bodyshop's Seaweed Mattifying Day Cream beats this.
9) High Impact Mascara - I like how it thickens my lashes but dont like it when I get teary eyed and nanti it just trails down. Really really.
10) Take the Day Off Makeup Remover - Oily, which is good in removing eyeliner or mascara. But just damn bloody oily la. Tak suka.

heh. see even a picture to show how Clinique crazy i am. LOL. And they have samples, yeah go try the samples first before buying. thats what i always do. hee!

im gonna keep myself busy so that i dont have to think about monday.

dreadful monday because its another week and it seems time just passed by too fast for me to catch my breath.
i havent heard from him for a week, and it bothers me. but i dont want it to bother me.

so i have to make other plans that doesnt involve anyone. the house is not so much in a mess, except for my room. heh.

i wish i could just stay and escape everything. but it all comes with consequences. i need to buck up on my studies. Articles need to be drafted and written.

I need a whole new time table now and prioritize, prioritze.

work hard, play hard as well. heh :)

Sometimes I lie to prevaricate the truth, because i knew it would hurt. Even when you ask me questions, to reassure your feelings for me. Its like playing "say uncle" and holding it for as long as we could.

i would trace the stars on your shoulder when you sleep, and wonder the "what ifs". but i knew its not going to happen, so i turn away and curl the other way.

Hope was something I cannot risk, investing in you.

So don't be mad at me for doing the things i do. I'm just holding on to whatever sanity I have left.