Sometimes I lie to prevaricate the truth, because i knew it would hurt. Even when you ask me questions, to reassure your feelings for me. Its like playing "say uncle" and holding it for as long as we could.

i would trace the stars on your shoulder when you sleep, and wonder the "what ifs". but i knew its not going to happen, so i turn away and curl the other way.

Hope was something I cannot risk, investing in you.

So don't be mad at me for doing the things i do. I'm just holding on to whatever sanity I have left.

its too far early in the morning, on a saturday. on a non-working day for me.
yes finally, i can say after like 4 years working in the previous industry.

i looked through my LJ's friends list and noticed the discrepancies of being on "friends' list.
so i filtered through and eradicated the unnecessary ones.

i shouldn't make the effort when they don't.

Doesn't mean i dont comment that i don't read.
If you think im not a trustworthy friend individual, its your prerogative. besides, LJ has the option of customizing friend's group.

i'm not pissed,just so you know. i'm merely clearing clutter.

yes, like the stack of magazines/books at the corner of your bed/floor or like too-cool-for-school clothes pile strewn all over your bed.

clutter. because some belongs in the trash, some has its own designated place and some, well, you simply trying to hide - the evidence of your (insert-current-obsession).


i stumbled upon tumblr.com and taken a fancy of its simple clean-cut appearance. so if you'd like the alternate - http://reformedlover.tumblr.com and like its title, the frequency of updates will vary.

Fyi.

it's getting tougher and tougher, I have to admit. But I need to prove myself that my capabilities doesn't limit to just that.

wow. I like this horoscope website. It's just so bloody spot-on. like really psychic that it's scary.

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June 11, 2009

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The Director may not fancy me now, but I know she will, soon. very very soon.

in the meantime, i shall let you all feast your eyes on the captain of my Love Boat.



delicious! Mmmm..~