urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dirtylola uh oh, uh oh. dirtylola dirtylola 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dirtylola:134500 Knock you down. 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z Sometimes I lie to prevaricate the truth, because i knew it would hurt. Even when you ask me questions, to reassure your feelings for me. Its like playing <a href="http://idioms.thefreedictionary.com/say+uncle" target="_blank">"say uncle"</a> and holding it for as long as we could. <br /><br />i would trace the stars on your shoulder when you sleep, and wonder the "what ifs". but i knew its not going to happen, so i turn away and curl the other way. <br /><br />Hope was something I cannot risk, investing in you. <br /><br />So don't be mad at me for doing the things i do. I'm just holding on to whatever sanity I have left.